GONG HEI FAT CHOY!!!


Woah.. Hello and a very good evening to all of you out there. Man... anyone can recall when's the last time I updated my blog?

Eh.. dun scroll down to check the date of my last post la.. Cheating wei..

This feels long man.. long as in.. WOW.... Like really WOW!!  Feels like I haven't touched the keyboard in ages! If I weren't to update my blog today, I think it'll turn into an ancient antique blog man.

So anyhoo, I suppose you can guess how busy I am lately till I've been delaying my updates. School homework are killing me, they keep piling up day by day. Almost as tall as Mount Everest I tell you..

Chinese New Year is coming and I'm so looking forward to it. I don't know why, but I'm extra excited over Chinese New Year this year. It's just 3 days more to go, and VOILA..

ANGPAU ANGPAU!!  Hehe..!


Well, things are getting much better now, from friendships to school to class.. but NOT teachers as a matter of a fact. I must say, without all the support and encouragement from each and every one of you, I might have not survived in that tough situation. So, big thanks to you guys! =)

Friendship with my dearest besties are getting along pretty much good now, although at times there are still some ups and downs in every one of us. But it's all cool, shit happens.

So yeah.

I'm sure those tinny winny stuffs won't bother us much for long. Moving on to school, school's fine I suppose.. but still sucky all in all. Why you may ask? *ahem* Same reasons; waking up bloody early in the morning, shitty homework, difficulties coping with studies and horrible teachers who can't speak good English.

Speaking about teachers....

Hahahahaah! My god.. that reminds me..

I tell you I have this really funny Mathematics (also known as Modern Maths I think) teacher who can't speak English well at all. Although yeah she's good in Maths, but what's the point if she can't explain and speak good English? Cos in that way, no students will be able to understand her.

This is what often happens during her Mathematic classes :

(Shall refer my Maths teacher as Pn.X)

Pn.X   :   Class.. faster faster! I want to teach you how to use calculator. Faster tear out your calculator! Faster faster.. (tear out = take out)

Classmate   :   Hah??! What teacher? Tear ah?

Pn.X   :   Yah yahh!! Faster tear out!!

Classmate   :   TEARING!!! Hahaha!

*whole class laughs* And yes, that includes me. Evil I know, but wei.. damn funny la.. she can't bloody pronounce the words "take out" properly.. Until it became "tear out..."  *smacks forehead*  Haha!

(the joke continues)

Pn.X   :   Now class.. you see the "mod" button up there ah.. Press mod to change the mod ah.. easy easy only.. (mod = mode.. she pronounces it as "mod")

Pn.X   :   If you don't want SCI mod anymore ah.. just press the mod button again.. then press shit mod if you want it normal again, okay class? (shit mod = shift mode)

Then the whole class started laughing again.. even louder this time! Then my classmate who keeps laughing at her English and correcting it, sort of got scolded by Pn.X..

Pn.X   :   Eh you don't always need to corrects my Engflish okay. I know I know my Engflish is not good.. But I'm not your Engflish teacher, I don't teach you Engflish wan okay? I'm a mad teacher.. So you don't always have to correct my Engflish okay?? (Engflish = English, mad = Math)

Hahahah! Laugh my ass off man... mad teacher.. indeed very mad..! Damn man.. she's such a joker la. But seriuosly, I don't know how I'm going to survive the whole year with Mathematics if she's going to teach my class like that. Hopefully her explanations will get better and will be easier to understand.


So yes.

That's bout it bout teachers. Regarding school, I should add something that I am now officially a Leo Club member and no more an Interactor.

After 3 years being in the Interact Club, I finally quitted. Why?

Because I see better chances in Leo and friends are also in it. So why not right? Well anyway, I was never a very active Interactor you see.. so I guess it won't make much of a difference if I am or not in the Interact Club. Might as well I start of a new beginning in the Leo Club, agree?

I'm not officially installed yet actually, Michelle, Gillian and I still gotta wait up for the next installation day to be officially installed. It's odd that we're not officially installed but we all have posts in the board already.

Currently, I'm holding the Assistant Community Service Director. I don't really know my responsibilities yet, but well yeah.. I guess I should prepare for it soon enough.

Also, being very particularly involved in the Leo Club now definitely took up a lot of my time. I'm often too busy with the Leo work till I have no time for other stuffs. Currently dreadfully busy over the Valentine's project of the Leo Club and our 5th Annual International Understanding Day.

I'm in the International Understanding Day (I.U.Day) Commitee with my besties as well. And we're seriously putting a lot of effort into this major event, so the amount of work we have is gonna pile up more and more day by day. Seriously hoping that our event will be a succesful one.

I will, for sure, post our further and complete details regarding both the Valentine's Day Project and 5th I.U. Day once all details and informations are approved and verified. So fellow friends out there, must support Cheryl and Leo k! =)


Time for dinner soon. I better be heading off first. Pictures pictures pictures!! I need to capture some soon, and I mean soon! Till then, Cheryl, signing off.


Yours truly,
Cheryl, busy with everything.

Humans... How would you best explain "humans"? I was searching the net on one of my English homework topics, and I stumbled across this page about how kids define "human". I find it very cute and thought of sharing it with you.. =)


"They are people who are alive.. like mommy, daddy and Uncle Joe."
-Racheal, 4 yrs.

"If he has 2 eyes, 1 nose, a mouth, 2 hands and a pair of legs.. then that's human." -Brian Jr., 3 yrs.

"Humans are God's creations." -Tiffy, 6 yrs.

"Humans? That's easy. They're always on TV but I don't know why." -Nicollae, 3 yrs.

"Kim Possible. She's a human too." -Patricia, 2 yrs.  (Too much cartoons for this darling here man...)


Hahah.. they surely tickled my bones! Kim Possible = Human???!  Man that's something new.. Kids kids.. how adorable.


I have no idea for the right way of defnining humans specifically. But humans, needless to say, they're like me and you. =)

All I know about us humans for sure is that we never stop requesting and asking. You give them one, they want two. You give them two, they want three. Give them 3, they want 4. Give them 4, they want 5. And the list continues on and on...

Tsk tsk tsk.... us humans...


Speaking about my title today, my mind was blank and I couldn't find a proper title for this post as it's a mix-of-everything kind of post today.. From something random (the human thingy), to life.. to changes I'm facing and so on. It's all mixed up together like rojak.

So yes.

This is a screwed up post.


Anyhoo, how's life going on everyone? Doing good there? I hope so. =)  As for me, getting better I would say, although yeah.. it's still pretty much as sucky.. but at least the lessons are starting and I'm finally learning something new.

Class and school is ever as stupid and boring, but I'm just really glad the studies and lessons started. I'd rather have homework and everything, better than to rot in school and at home.


*Hitz.fm started playing Akon - Lonely...*

*Cheryl starts wandering in Wonderland*


Ever felt that you're alone? Alone in this world.. although there are so many others standing surrounding you.. but you still feel that you're alone?

Have you ever felt that you thought you found your suitable bunch of buddies, but ends up to see that it's not what you expected?

Am I changing, or is the world changing, OR.. are my friends changing? Why is it that I don't seem to click in with them anymore.. Why is it that our interests don't seem to match anymore, or probably it never did in the first place?

Why is this happening, or even if it has to happen, why did it have to only happen now? Why am I only allowed to see all these now? I'd rather not see anything!

I never fitted in their conversations... their topics.. just not anymore. I'm speechless and out of words. I asked myself, "why is this happening?" over and over again. But I still haven't reached the point of an answer. Will this be temporary, or permanent? Will I ever be able to adapt to all changes happening now or not? Will I see the true cause of my friends and I drifting apart?

Will I or will I not?

I'm not here to mention any names, I'm not afraid if my friends whom I'm talking about happen to read this, I'm not afraid of anything.. except for to have our friendships becoming worlds apart.

I've never felt so alone in my entire life. All the problems and situations I'm undergoing, they're just not visible to many of them. Who have I have left to talk to now?

No one, but just to myself and God.

Why am I making life so depressing...? Not to mention, also my blog seems such a depressed place now man... No more pictures.. no more fun.. no more jokes.. All I have been talking were the negatives.

Where's all the fun I used to have?

Where are all laughters I used to share?

Where are all the pictures I used to post?

Where are the EVERYTHING that were in the past?


This is so saddening, but I'm sorry I had to make ya'll read these shits full of sadness.

By the way, I have an English essay to write, and the topics is "Problems Teenagers Are Facing" or close to that... So yeah, it's regarding about all the depressing stuffs we teenagers are facing.. from families.. to friends.. to studies.. to school.. to social life.. to LIFE and everything..

So yes.

Most probably will be working on it tonight I suppose, and to tell you honestly, that is a great topic and I'm looking forward on writing it. I might post the essay up here when I'm done with it.. it's just a might... =)


Dinner time, gotta run! Know what? I hope this changes are just dreams.. I hope for everything to be back like normal.. and I just hope it's just me being stupid..

And so before I sign off, have a good day everyone.  (you gotta put a smile on your face even if you're feeling sad or down, cos who knows, you might brighten up someone's day with that smile of yours. You can make someone happy even if you can't make yourself happy. A smile makes a difference.. it really does..)


Yours truly,
Cheryl feeling lostand lonely.

First among everything, Streamy-x sux. Big time. Couldn't get online thanx to damn streamy-x once again. *grumbles*

Okay.

WOWW.... I guess I found hell.. And I'm in it.. How lucky I am to experience HELL.. *like duhh.. sarcastically of course.. -.- *

If you would wanna know the description or meaning of hell, I suggest you look up the Dictionary, search for "Cheryl's Class"............

That's what would explain what's hell best..

My bloody class.

I hate it. Hate it so much. Not only the class, practically the whole school. Not forgetting, also the teachers..

I finally got my stream, and I don't know why on earth I chose Pure Science. As you know, Pure Science was last in my list. Not to mention, I even cancelled it off my list. I don't know what ever got into me..

Well actually, I have my besties with me together in Pure Science. Just that, the huge difference is... we're not in the same class.

We're worlds apart now..

I don't know anyone in my class.. Not really nobody, but yeah.. do you consider 3-4 many?

I don't think so.

My classmates are totally the opposite.. They're so smart, obedient.. and quiet.. Sheeeshh... dammit. And the worst, they all normally speak Mandarin, which I can barely do so as I pretty much suck in Mandarin.

So yeah, imagine. Having nobody to talk to anymore in class..

Moving on to the teachers. My god.. They're like hell man. If they're good and strict like hell, that's alright. At least it's better than having them being stupid and useless like hell, RIGHT?

I knew I was never a very lucky girl.. But I didn't know I was that unlucky to actually have all the horrible teachers who can't teach well. But this exception goes to my Physics teacher. She's the only one I'm counting on now man. Looks like I'm all on my own this year..

So yes. After all my whinnings, grumblings and blabbings, the conclusion is.....

SCHOOL SUX.


I love working, I love my colleagues, I love Amour. I worked yesterday. Well as you know, yesterday was a Friday, and Michelle and I promised to help out on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays till Chinese New Year's Eve I guess.

Work was ever as great and fun. Definitely better than being in school. My happiest smile I had on my face yesterday, was when I stepped into the boutique, and I saw the bestest of best people you can ever find in the world..., my colleagues.

Yesterday at work, while Michelle and I were talking about our school, class, classmates, teachers and all that shit.. I felt pretty depressed.. and sad, to actually just think about it.

Especially yesterday, which I truly regreted going school yesterday.. cos it was hell a waste of time. I did nuts in school, as in NOTHING. NOTHING at all. Just sat down and rot. I wasted my effort waking up bloody early in the morning, like at 5 in the morning.. and to do NOTHING in school. I could have just stayed at home and sleep.

So, when we were talking about school, I wasn't all in the good mood.. you know what I mean? I can't remember how many times I said to Michelle.. "fuck my life..", but yeah, I guess it was pretty uncountable.


Night time, we bought our colleagues dinner. Just in a way to thank them for everything all these while, and also just something small from us before we officially leave work. So yeah, we got them KFC.. cos that's all we could afford. =)

We walked over to KFC to "ta pau" the food.. and there were so many things to carry, the whole bucket of KFC Chickens, and the huge F&N Orange Bottle, plus all the whipped potato + coleslaws + french fries and everything..

Carrying all those stuffs were not a problem at all.. But if you would add Thunder + Heavy rain + Lightning + Flooded road to that equation above just now...

Then it's gonna be = HOLY SHIT...

It was raining so heavily, the wind was so strong that our umbrella could barely stay still. It was a hell funny experience, although rather suffering and pityful too!

Normally, when you're in the rain with an umbrella, obviously you would most protect is yourselve, right? Like duhh.. *smacks forehead*

But I tell you, that was the first time in my life, that I ever protected food more than my ownself. I actually cared about KFC more than myself under the rain??!! What the hell man...

Michelle and I ended up soaking wet.. from head to toe. My pants and shoes were most wet, my head and body were drowning.. I practically looked as if I just got raped by monsters in the sea!

Then, there I go once again.. screaming "fuck" in the middle of the road. I kept repeating on and on, "fuck my life". I think people from the kopitiams were staring at Michelle and I, wondering what on earth is that sick girl's problem, running under the heavy rain, carrying so many KFC stuffs and cursing like that...

And by this, I made that day a very sinful one.

Oh Lord, please forgive me.. Little Cheryl don't mean to do such sins, you know it, right Lord? =)

I guess that proves how much I hate school, class, teachers and whatsoever. They don't mean anything to me anymore.

A pretty depressed girl I am now huh? Sigh.. And this is just the beginning. Can't bare to imagine what's the end.........


Signing off,
Cheryl in Hell.

*Clears throat loudly*

*Cheryl starts singing with all her might*


"Should auld acquaintance be forgot.....
And never brought to mind.....?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot...
And days of auld lang syne....?
For auld..................."


Yes, Cheryl. We get your point.. you can stop now.

Now now Cheryl, let's stop the emotional stuffs, we all know that it's sad to say goodbye to 2005 but the fact is we already did.

And the main reason me not wanting to say goodbye to 2005 is because school will be starting once we say..... "HELLO 2006".......

Awwww...... Dammit.........


I DON'T WANNA START SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Urghh... Well anyway, before I start getting any crazier, just wanna wish every one of you out there...

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!" 


New year's eve's celebration was a blast huh?

With all the fireworks and everything.. ahhh... awesome!

I went for the countdown too! Just that I went somewhere where not many people went, and I don't think they even know where the place is.. The place was comfortable, chilly but yet rather boring.. and the fireworks I saw was.. well, ever the same every year....

And I that place is none other than.................


HOME SWEET HOME....!


Arggh.. yes, I know! Shut up! Hahahah!

The fireworks I saw was ever the same every year was because I watched them on the TV, , and yes as a matter of a fact, EVERY SINGLE YEAR...

Sighh... I don't think I ever went out and celebrated New Year's Eve before. It was always home, home, home, home and home. I was working on new year's eve and ended work at 10:30pm. Initially, I had plans with my friends to catch the fireworks at Pyramid Shopping Mall.

Unfortunately, my dear besties couldn't make it along with me, and so I had no one to accompany me there as mommy and daddy were too lazy to stand and wait for the fireworks and they rather lie on the couch facing the televisions, doing the countdown with NTV7 and TV2. *smacks forehead* Sighhh....

Mom and dad were watching a chinese movie showing on Astro Wah Lai Toi channel 30, something like "One Night in Mongkok".. some sort like that.. and I watched along too. As the movie ended, it was already close to 12am. They quickly changed the channels and tuned to a channel that has the live countdown showing.

The countdown was on.... The huge clock appeared on TV, having it's little hand stroke ticking at every second..

10.. 9.. 8... 7.. 6...

(Mom and dad were still plainly relaxing on the couch not counting along with the clock)

5.. 4... 3.. 2.. 1....

"Happy New Year!"

We hugged and wished each other, and sat back on the couches.

Then, mom and dad quickly changed back to the Astro Wah Lai Toi channel 30 and continued watching some chinese programme.....

Right..... So much for a new year's eve celebration huh?

And well, if you're wondering what I did on the first day of the year?

Working.

Yupp, I was working... full shift somemore ah...! But actually, it's not as bad as how I'm putting it now into words, I actually enjoyed working today although as much as I wished I could go out for some shopping..

It's not really my last day of work you know, I still have to work although school is starting. The agreement we made was to work till before the Chinese New Year starts, so.. that's probably until January 27th or 28th?

Now don't get shocked or anything.. I won't be working everyday, definitely not on weekdays cos I have school and I don't think I can cope having two big things to do in one day. So, just for the weekends.

My next day of work would be on Friday, 6th January 2006. 4 days of break from work. No no, make that, 4 long days of break! No no no.. 4 FREAKING long days of break!!!

I can't believe I'm actually already missing work!!!

I know 4 days will pass just in a blink of an eye, but I'm so not used to it. Working was like my everyday routine, and now having to change it just feels so odd. School is starting on January 3rd. How soon is that man? Sux big time...

How am I gonna pass my free time at home when school starts? And when I wake up from sleep, I won't be able to think and match what outfit I would wear to work.. cos all I can wear is the bloody SCHOOL UNIFORM! Sobs....

And I miss my colleagues so much already! All the fun and laughter we had.. although for sure there were bad times as well, but all in all, they are hell of wonderful friends that you can't find anywhere else besides Amour Boutique.

I don't know how it'll be like after I officially stop working there....

I might just burst into tears... I know I know, sensitive and emotional, but hey.. I tell you, although they might not remember me for life, or they might not miss me as much as I will miss them (or they probably won't even miss me), no matter what it is, I know that I'll never forget my times working there, all the things they taught me, all the things I learnt, all the things I BOUGHT from the shop *ahem*, all the laughters we shared, all the problems I caused, all the jokes we made and all of the EVERYTHING. I won't and never will forget them.

I miss Amour... I miss my colleagues... Kak Donna, Kak Ifah, Ah Lee JieJie (a name she hates me to call her), John (is a boss considered as a colleague?), Josephine, and a wonderful friend I met during my working period, Ruben.... I miss hanging the clothes, I miss punching the prices, I miss putting the tags on, I miss so many things and everything that there are too many for me to name. I just practically miss everything!

This feeling is not any ordinary feeling I felt during my past times working as a part timer.. I used to work part time else where last year, and I've never felt like this. I never missed work. Never. Infact, I was happier I stopped work. I've never missed my previous colleagues like this before.

Everyone and everything that happened in Amour, I'll put it in a safety box, then I'll put the safety box in my heart, I'll lock it and I'll throw the key away...

Ahhh.... don't make me tear now.... *sniffs*


Another sad case, school will be starting on the 3rd of Jan, which eventually means tomorrow since today's considered the 2nd of Jan, although actually today still means the 1st of Jan to me.. hehe! I hope I'm not confusing you..

Well anyway, school is starting, and that sux!! I hate waking up early, that's the worst! Having my bloody bus to come at 6am every single morning when school only freaking starts at 7:30am is hell I tell you.. I reach school around 6:30am, sit and rot for another hour in the school cafeteria. Shit...

WOAHH... SHHIITTT!!!!


This time, it's serious SHIT!!!!

I just remembered about the form I'm supposed to hand up on the first day of school to the teachers. It's a form that I'm supposed to fill up regarding what stream I would like to enter for this year 2006. I have only 3 choices, Pure Science, Sub Science or Arts.

I'm blank and clueless. I don't know what to go for. Firstly, Pure Science has Biology and I hate that. I would rather die if I will ever have to learn Bio.

Secondly, Sub Science does not includes Biology, but has Accounts which replaces Biology. I was told Accounts are taught in Bahasa Malaysia. And then I was thinking, it's useless if I were to learn Accounts in Bahasa Malaysia, cos all these while, my Maths and Science are all in English. It would be hell to to learn Accounts in Bahasa Malaysia. Also, if I were to take up Accounting in the future, it's also in English. So the Bahasa Malaysia won't do any good in Accounts.

Thirdly, Art stream. A stream free from Biology, Chemistry and Physics. A much easier stream to take, and also less stressful, but yet many describe Art stream as "no good". When you say Art Stream to them, automatically to them, it'll be.. Art Stream = Thumbs down. I disagree. I onced posted about this before.. Here!


But anyway, this is a hard decision, and I don't wanna regret my whole life for this. I badly need senior advices. So, seniors out there, please do write in some advices or opinions to me at the comments link below my post. I need them badly, and hell badly.. I have less than a day to decide and this is hard man.. HARD!

I NEED HELP!!!!!


And so.... moving on to another topic.

*thinks to ownself* Boy am I talking too much today....

My new year's resolution, as promised I will update my list as soon as I have new things in mind.. So here's the udpate..


Cheryl's New Year's Resolution

1.   Read the whole entire Bible (I'm starting to have second thoughts about this)
2.   Study harder and be more hardworking
3.   Shop less, spend less money
4.   Eat healthier diets
5.   Be more patient
6.   PUNCTUALITY.... very important
7.   Keep blogging for years more to come
8.   Grow taller and keep fit.. =)
9.   Collect all Jay's previous albums


So yupp. Only added up 3. But man that's a pretty long list just for a new year's resolution!

What were you thinking Cheryl??!!?! Making a shopping list meh??

I wish I could go on with my grandmother stories, but I don't know if it's just me, but time is flying hell fast today, it's already 3:15am now. I need to go to bed!!

I shall continue my blabberings and scribblings another time. Till then, wishing every one of you, a Happy New Year and Happy Holidays! God bless always.. Nitez!


Yours truly,
Sleepy Cheryl.... *yawns*